Well today was an interesting day. Sitting on my computer I was looking at my Facebook news feeds and saw a friend posting about something called Plexus. We got to talking and she told me all about this health product and how it can help my issues with my weight.
Now, keep in mind that in the last 7 years I have spent enough money I could probably but a down payment on a house on failed products and plans that promised they were the answer.
I have tried every other product or plan out on the market or the internet. Some include Weight Watcher, Visalus aka Body By Vi, ItWorks, TruVision Health, FitSticks, HCG Diet, Ace, BodyFX, Advocare, Herbalife, Isagenix, Cabbage Soup Diet, Mediterranean Diet, The Biggest Loser Diet, Shakeology… well the list goes on! Needless to say none of them worked for me and meal replacement plans had me sick to my stomach and dizzy by day 2 or 3.
So I finally broke down and joined a gym in the Spring of 2012. I was very serious about getting the weight off – I was SO unhappy with myself. I went to the gym EVERY day directly from work, Monday through Friday, for an hour. Not only did I go to the gym I paid a personal trainer to work 1:1 with me two of those five days each week. A month went by and I was there with still no loss to show. I talked to my trainer and he advised me to go to my doctor to see if there was something medical going on.
I went to see my doctor that June. We reviewed my food journals and what I had been doing to that point to lose weight. She ran every test she could and gave me a full physical. The result showed my only issue was that I had very bad cholesterol (um DUH! I am FAT!). My thyroid was ‘middle of normal’ and she found nothing else wrong during all of my blood work. She prescribed a drug called Lyothyronine which she said would make my thyroid become overactive causing me to lose 2 pounds per week which was a healthy rate of loss.
Four months went by of paying for this prescription and still no movement on the scale!
Needless to say, I am the biggest skeptic she may ever have had the pleasure of speaking with in her life.
Here I sit with all of my weight to lose still, after almost 7 years since I was pregnant with my youngest child….
So, what makes this time different? Why won’t I gain it all back again this time? Why will I stick with this when I never have before?
I don’t want to be in this spot anymore. The spot where I avoid getting my picture taken because I am embarrassed with how I look, I do not go clothes shopping because I keep saying “I am going to lose weight so why buy stuff that won’t fit in a month (and of course then I never lose anything, it just the thought of seeing the size of what I will need to buy).
I mean look at just my face in that photo up top– THIS IS NOT WHO I AM!
I almost passed out when Karen from Motor Racing Outreach took this picture at the Charlotte Motor Speedway Race when we had our monthly Women’s event at the track (let alone that she posted it on Facebook and tagged me!) Its always so hard to go to the races and sit with the other NASCAR wives and be… well FAT. For me it is embarrassing to go to the races and look the way I do around the other driver and team wives.
I need to find the gal inside of me that I used to be, the one that I actually LIKE.
By the way that beautiful girl next to me, that is my oldest child – one of the lights of my life. One of the reasons I need to take off this weight and get healthy so that I can be around for her and my son and my husband for a LONG time to come.
Can anyone relate?? Why does this consume my life??? Will there ever be a time when it won’t? Will this stuff really be the answer? I guess time will tell….